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Jul252012

Orange Sky

 

The sky out my driver's side window was washed in such a fierce orange glow that I wondered for a moment if I had missed the headline about a new forest fire.  I was racing against myself to get to the cabin where old friends awaited our arrival.  I fumbled blindly for my iPhone so I could try to freeze the sky's furious drama without having to slow down.

My big camera spends a lot of time in my camera bag these days, silently rebuking me - transmitting signals that only I receive about how I'm not worthy or that the view in front of me is too simple or too obvious.  My iPhone happily shoots whatever banal scene I point it at, without judgement.

Over me the ominus virga of mountain rainclouds started dropping intermittent sprinkles and the road unfurled past the reservoir in a slick black ribbon.  I slowed down a little, mindful of my tires worn down by endless repetitions of this drive.  With one eye on the iPhone screen scanning past my driver's-side window and one eye on the rain-slicked road ahead of me, it hit me.

Look to the right.

I gasped when I turned.

The foot of a thousand-watt rainbow, perfectly framed in the passenger window, thisclose.  I moved the iPhone to my right hand and snapped.  Thank god for the iPhone, which doesn't sniff at cliches or make me second guess anodyne beauty.  

Then a directive rose from deep in my gut: pull over.  

Pull.  Over.

I didn't want to, but the directive pointed out that if you are thisclose to the brightest rainbow you've ever seen in the middle of the Rocky Mountains and you have a big camera in the back and you can't make yourself stop because it's too pretty, you're probably an asshole.  Or if you have the next four days with nothing time-sensitive to do, but you're in too much of a rush to pull over?  Again, asshole.  Not, you know, politician-level asshole or Wall Street banker-level asshole, but still.  Just stop the car.  Appreciate what's in front of you.

I may be self-absorbed and stuck in my head.  I may think too much, about the wrong things.  I may try too hard and have too little to show for it.  I may be the queen of white girl problems.  

But I'd like to think I'm not an asshole.

I pulled over, got out the big camera, snapped on the wide angle lens and gave myself permission to stop thinking and for once, just shoot.

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Reader Comments (20)

Thank you, thank you, thank you for listening to your inner voice. So sorry it threatened you with being an asshole. You could NEVER be an asshole, just sayin'.

July 25, 2012 | Unregistered CommenterMarjorie

HOLY. SHIT. This photo is amazing. And I love how you shared the honest and true feeling and thoughts swirling in your head. You know exactly what to do with that big girl camera. Do your work. xoxo

Magic.
My socks have been knocked off by this story.
Way to own your narrative, girlfriend, and herd it from all its hideouts onto this page and into these images. Yeehaw!
Magic.

July 25, 2012 | Unregistered CommenterKathleen

atta girl

July 25, 2012 | Unregistered Commenterst

Another message from the Universe. Let's face it, she's crazy about you!

July 25, 2012 | Unregistered CommenterJewel

I am speechless at the beauty.

July 25, 2012 | Unregistered CommenterDebbie

holy wow. just holy wow. thanks for pulling over and sharing.

July 25, 2012 | Unregistered CommenterKasey Jackson

Beautiful, Corinna

July 25, 2012 | Unregistered CommenterLogN

So now you know. Not the head. Deep in the gut.
That's the one to listen to. Look where it takes you and where it lets us lucky ones go with you.

July 25, 2012 | Unregistered CommenterMichael

jesus christ. so beautiful, corinna. i love you. and all your inner-ramblings, you non-ass hole, you ;). xo

July 25, 2012 | Unregistered Commenterrachael maddox

Well, I knew you weren't an asshole.

And that, well THAT IS PHENOMENAL.

I love that passage and the part about white girl problems. I hear ya girl. And I talk to myself too much too. Love that your found some quiet.

July 25, 2012 | Unregistered CommenterLife in Eden {amy}

Double Rainbow!!!!!

July 25, 2012 | Unregistered CommenterOlliespop

I think my big camera is feeling the same amount of unlove as yours! Thanks for the reminder to slow down and go with that creative feeling that is sometimes so overwhelming you hardly know what to do with it. Beautiful shot!

July 25, 2012 | Unregistered Commentercarmen

Corinna it is so beautiful, that you made me dream about Colorado again. Love, m

July 26, 2012 | Unregistered CommenterMichaela

God damn, that's a picture.

July 26, 2012 | Unregistered CommenterDBS

WOW! The universe was calling your name. SLOW DOWN..yes - and smell the roses! Or - stop and capture the most stunning landscape that was unfolding before your very eyes. WOW!

July 26, 2012 | Unregistered CommenterMarcie

I think the rule is that if you are aware of the possibility of being an asshole - then you can't be an asshole. I am SO glad you listened to that "pull over" voice. And didn't listen to that "this is too pretty" voice. Because there is NO way a scene such as this qualifies as trite. It is simply stunning and very much worthy of the "big camera" treatment, in your talented hands.

July 27, 2012 | Unregistered CommenterBrenda

while i object to the disparaging of assholes (being one myself), i'm deliriously happy that you listened to the muse and pulled over.
please also tell me you spent 15 seconds shooting this magic on video, or we might have to revisit that asshole conversation.

xo

July 29, 2012 | Unregistered Commenterjen lemen

Nope. Not an asshole.
And this photo stirred up all kinds of lustful feelings for the Rockies. That's normal, right? Thought so.

July 30, 2012 | Unregistered CommenterMike

Holy crap!!! That is absolutely breathtaking and, quite frankly, the reason for big cameras. I'm stunned by the beauty of this shot Corinna.

July 30, 2012 | Unregistered CommenterChristopher

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